In the Netherlands we have this thing: “there is a time of coming, and there is a time of going. And the time of going has come.” For me, this is unfortunately true as well. The sixteen weeks of the Spring semester at Ferris State University flew by, and all the excitement that I had for coming here has slowly turned into bittersweetness.
How do you call it when you want to go home, but you felt more than at home away? How do you call that? You want to go home, but you’re so confused at what home is anymore, seeing as you found home in so many hearts and so many places that you have visited? I had a crazy, busy and fun semester. I made small dreams and big dreams come true, I travelled to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at the Universal Studios. I saw the beauty of Chicago, I went to a crazy party at Oakwood, I relaxed with my friends on the pier of Lake Michigan in Holland and I went to a carnival. I spend hours and hours in the gym, I watched what I ate, I shopped a lot (trust me, a lot!) and I did so much more. There wasn’t a weekend that I was bored, there wasn’t a time where I felt homesick and there wasn’t a moment where I regretted my choice to come to Ferris State.
I want to say something about the friends I made, there are different people. We have a small little group that we call ‘the squad’. These are the people I hang out with all the time, and I have become so close to these girls that it’s absolutely devastating to say goodbye to them. The funny part is that these girls are not the ‘type’ of people that I would’ve hung out with out of own choice, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
To my sweetest roommate Erica: I will never forget how you stared at me for minutes and minutes when I first told you I was from the Netherlands. I will not forget the talks we had about boys and the frustrations that we ranted at each other. We trusted each other enough to tell each other everything.
To my favourite Mexican Girl : You opened my eyes about things that I would never see myself. You gave me the courage to believe in myself and love myself. You’re such an outgoing person and girl, you’re super gorgeous and I wish I could show you to everyone! Thank you for being you.
To my Aruban chica Janelle: Thanks to you I ate healthy and lost 30lbs. Thanks to you I dropped two, almost three, jeans sizes. But you’re so much more than just my personal trainer. I knew you before, but we’ve become so close here and I got to know you much better. We laughed and cried together, we worked out like crazy people and I will never forget the ‘struggle’, even though I will see you at school.
To my crazy black girl Deyon: You came in as a friend of Erica’s, and you left being a part of the squad, friends of all of us. You’re such a crazy girl, and we all love it. You can be fierce most of the time, and you’re like me, wanting our opinions to be heard. You’re an awesome girl and I think you will get far in life!
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Of course there were more people than that here at Ferris State that have a special place in my heart, and who I will miss dearly.
To my fellow movie freak Gavin: Your nickname from me says enough, you and me love movies and that’s how we became friends in the first place. I remember seeing the book ‘Four’ on your desk, and I never met someone else who is an actual fan of Divergent other than you. I had lots of fun seeing movies with you and I would do it any time, if I can. You’re going to make it, and who knows, maybe you’ll be playing in the movies that I watch in the future.
To my badass girl Cassidy: I remember walking into your dorm with Ericka and sitting on your bed. I said ‘you look like my type, let’s be friends’, and well, from that moment on we were. I loved how bold you are with your tattoos and your hair, you influenced me greatly in good ways. I know we had some arguments here and there, but we were both good enough to fix it all up. Now you’re leaving for bootcamp in the U.S Army and I bet you’ll do great!
To my coffee addict Pedro: You and I suffered through a lot! Boring classes, boring presentations, but we did it! We didn’t hang out too much (unfortunately), but I feel like we connected greatly from the beginning, and I remember that I liked all! I wish we had more time, but I bet we will meet again!
To my zombie girl Abby: We didn’t talk from the start, I even thought you didn’t like me at first! But I think since we realized how hard the struggle was sometimes in the Directors class, we bonded good! I loved acting like a creepy person in your movie and I loved the time we did had together! Thank you so much for buying me a Starbucks as our last time thingy. Just remember: the critic was born after the artist, and you’ll make it!
To my Chicago buddy Zee: I feel like we didn’t know each other very well before we went to Chicago together. We were friends though, and we had great contact together and I thought you were the nicest person in the world! But during our Chicago trip is when we became better friends. I remember strolling around the streets of Chicago around 2am and you were speaking in your amazing British accent, and that is one of the memories I will keep with me. The weather was beautiful and the city was too! I am absolutely in love with the city. I really hope your dreams of studying abroad come true, because it’s absolutely amazing.
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I’m so sorry if I forget anyone else who was close to me. It’s currently 01:38am and it has been a really long day. Saying goodbye and giving last hugs to people is something that I hate doing, and something that is very hard for me. I did love all the time I had with everyone, and I would all do it again in a heartbeat. You guys are my friends, and this experience here made me a stronger person. Even though Big Rapids is such a small city, so small that the Amish even come and eat some food at the college cafeteria, but it made it fun too. You see people you know everywhere you go, and when you get greeted just randomly by people who met you, that’s just a very good feeling.
Right now I’m in a hotel room in Grand Rapids with the Squad, as our last night together before Janelle jumps on the plane at 06:30am. That’s when things get real as we all say goodbye, or see you soon to each other.
This semester will have a place in my heart forever, and I wouldn’t change a thing.